well,i have been stressed lately with the emotional turmoil up my neck like a son of a bitch i seriously don't understand why I've been facing unfortunate events of sorts lately that would totally lead me to my despair. But i guess there's a reason to all of it... anyway let me list these unfortunate events 1.increasing number of disputes between my sweetie and me 2.been screwing up terribly till i went outta my senses 3.been screwing up non-stop till i got traumatized and paranoid the next day 4.increasing number of blames i got for the things i did not do 5.i could not blame it on my pms because it isn't anyway near 6.to think i was being superstitious because it definitely wasn't my black jeans 7.eroding of my precious values and morals 8.getting increasingly stressed up 9.got sick again immediately after recovery 10.my kitten jumped off the 5 story flat and managed to survive 11.broke up with my cutie pie over a stupid misunderstanding 12.asthma acted up again 13.losing memory really quick 14.my cat is in heat again 15.my baby seemed to have trouble phrasing without brewing more misunderstandings that should be about it... it has been a busy busy week all the pain and agony i had to go through while working many disappointment self-loathing self-denial disorientation and all those absolutely horrible terrible feeling all those pessimism just don't stop they just keep building and building up till one day i'd have to break down and shatter before picking myself up
i forgot how it was like to have asthma the last time i had asthma was 2 years ago when i got truly stressed up i fell terribly ill my asthma acted up don't take it lightly when you haven't experienced it before because the pain was extremely excruciating initially you'll accumulate quite a large amount of phlegm at your throat which can irritate the shit outta you secondly your air pipe would shrink allowing less air to enter your body thus making it extremely hard to breathe where every breathe was hard to make panting perspiring hoping you won't die because of lack of oxygen realizing that it was a crucial issue that had to be resolved with utmost urgency or i would die it was indeed an emergency because not being able to breathe properly pose as a danger what if my breathing deteriorates? what if i went out of breathe? i prayed so damn hard for God to support me provide me enough oxygen to support me the whole day i was so terrified of losing my breathe it felt as if i was close to death but far from it your nose gets blocked and the only way to breathe was your mouth your breath suddenly feels constraint so much so that it'd hurt to breathe it ached to move you feel so weak because you couldn't supply your body with sufficient amount of oxygen enough to function well every step took all too much work climbing up stairs made me breathless an achy walking around was hard enough it was difficult to do anything at all without risking yourself and the worst thing was i had to work it was so scary soo frightening then ive been unusual lately i've not been myself soo much that i forgot who i was anymore i guess...i have to find out who i was it was soo much of emotional turmoil that rocked us up and down
6:02 PM
Artsy Tartsy
Every month I'd post different photos
Profile
F**K THAT
I'm just crazy alright?
Me...
18...not that you should care ,
but it's the basics to actually know my age
My cats are gorgeous and shall rule the world!
I LOVE CATS!!!...
Halloween baby
technically I can't be bothered with the opposite sex trying to hit on me now...
Life is going to be spectacular this year and i can feel it, told you i'd change when i'm 18... what am i talking
about life has been and always will be crazy
