Tuesday, January 27, 2009
well dearest and i were dining in ikea that day
however i seemed to forget which day that was
so this is the really tasty and absolutely marinated raw salmon with herbs
tastes great with the honey mustard...
even to this day right now it's making me drool
this wasn't my dish
it was heralds
the salmon and potatoes with cream sauce
it was nice too
but nothing beats meatballs!!!
this would be the soup we decided to get that day
it was amazing how the flavour got delivered
because it wasn't thick at all
more watery
and yet it was full of flavor
could never get enough of it lol
of course dear dear wasn't a fan of it cause it was watery
he prefered them thick XD
me?i prefer everything that tastes good XD
this was the meatballs i was referring to
see
it looks sooo tasty
with the raspberry at the side
awwwwwwwww
to bad they all ended in dung entering out my anus
what a waste
but oh well
hahahaha i look great in this photo
if i don't say so myself
actually all 3 of us look great yesterday
i decided we should kinda take a new year photo
of me um wearing a dress that's red
for once in my life
yes i have nothing red in my closet but that
that's meant for chinese new year
anyway im eurasian
it's visible in this photo isn't it XD???
yes im so full of myself
then again who isnt?
and dont try to lie to yourself
you know yourself best XD
the dress was making me uncomfortable though
it was tight and i couldn't cross my leg when i wanted to sit on the floor
not to mention i was having cramps!!!
but it wasn't bad
i loved yesterday
i get to spend my entire day out
meeting my to be husband's other side of the family
he's cousins were rather interesting XD
and he's aunties are kinda like all the other aunties i met
study well etc etc
oh well
how else were you to say to 100 people in a day?
a long lecture about life?
nah not a chance HAHA
and embarrassingly i was munching non stop on the goodies
haha tastes so good
who cares about calories?
i don't hahahha
anyway it was hilarious enough
because visiting day one is meant for relatives
but no one knows me in his side of relatives
so they were like whos daughter is she
then the ones who know my status told them
they seemed disturbingly rejoicing over the fact that i was his gf o.o
hahaha
and yes i was delightful
they called me pretty
seriously they kinda shouted it out loud lmao
and no i don't get that everyday anyway so sue me XD
although i didn't know the introduction protocol
so i gave up trying to introduce myself formally lmao
even though i tried my hardest to you know hide in the corner
but i got pulled into the hotspot for a sec
shying away smiling like i got caught for something wrong lol
embarrassing yes
joyous yes LOL
but soon later the dress which restricts me
and made me feel uncomfortable
so i changed into something more me
the long sleeve and my pear of black shorts=)
that felt so much better
me hannah and herald =)
hannah had new highlights which looks was cool
why dont i wanna dye my hair
um cause i dont
just because you guys dye your hair for some appearance reason
i dont seem why i need or should dye my hair
i found no reason to
so i chuck it away
considering almost 99.9%
of my friends dyed their hair
poor thing really cause most of them looked better in their natural color lol
dear dear's mom is at the back of the photo with angel their dog haha
he's dad's side relatives
this side is the side where i'm comfortable with
they are soo nice
more sociable to be exact
they never bore me like all the other auntie's do
i just seem to appreciate how their life revolves around
after years of experience you don't see any pride in them
or arrogance in them
you see humble loving people
which i love instantly
yes i love them too haha
oh this is dumbnut
you must be wondering why he's in that satellite dish
he recent went for an operation
pertaining to his bladder system
but he's well now
the process of looking after him was tiring but worth every second
now this is my mock up model
yep i did every strip of it
nope i'm not kidding
it's real houses we're dealing with this time
hope the journey isn't so hectic after today
kinda still feel like the holiday mood lmao
ahh the pizza that i love
trio cheese
from pizza hut
to reward ourselves for the hardwork and effort we put in the model
hazimah and me XD
it has been a rather interesting week though
and i read almost all the books of the twilight saga anyways
hurray
and yest not hurray cause what am i to read after that???
i don't know, seriously
till then happy chinese new year =)
7:52 PM
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
throught this years he was the one who gave me hope
who gave me a reason to love
who stood by me and comfort me when i was crying
who encouraged me to live a wonderful life
who made me believe in God even more
that there was hope!
and now he was leaving me
he was going to die
but he waited for me
so he could spend the remaining of his life with me
the one who found him
the one who loved him
he loved me
he was willing to sacrifice so much
just to put up that strength to wait for me
meowing for me
when i'm not at home
he will wait
for me to support him
like a mother i am to him
he didnt give up his life just yet
he wants he's last goodbye to be me
the last one he saw before he left this cruel world
even though he bled to death
the pain and agony he went through
he still waited for me
enduring
thinking that mommy will come back
i love mommy
i don't wanna die without seeing her
it shatters my hearts once again to even think of him dying
it took my mom just a few sentences to make me pour
"he was waiting for you to come back, meowing for you to help him clean his mess when he puked" he was counting on me so much
i cant help but drown in tears
he's leaving me
why not bring him to the vet?
because he wants to die
eventually he has to anyway
and if he sees a vet, he'll put him to sleep
cause he's condition is far worse
it's like having cancer
you can't do anything but pray
he's the only person that knows the real me
he lived with me
i showed him true compassion
i never insulted him
to me he was perfect in a weird way
i never get really pissed at him
even if i neglected him
he still loved me
for who i was
which no man would ever understand
only he did
he understood me inside out
he was everything i wanted
kind, caring, affectionate loving and so much more
how fortunate i was to have him
now i was about to have him gone
to me he's the greatest cat in the world
and now i'm about to lose him
i know im mean to everyone else
but im never mean to them
i never hated them
i only hated man cause they have a lot of flaws
but dumbnut seems perfect in my vision
he listens to me
he sits next to me when im crying
understanding what im going through
even if he didnt he was my shoulder to cry on
he was my inspiration
he was the one to show me the possibilities
of loving
even though i had a violent nature
he showed me how beautiful i was
i mean i know
all this coming from just a cat
he isn't just a cat to me
he is THE cat
he is more then just a cat
the love of my life
the one that im willing to put everything behind for them
willing to be selfless for them
as long as they're happy i'm contented
i know it's odd
but i love him so much
11:42 PM
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
have you ever had someone you love dying before your very eyes
the pain he or she went through
all that agony
that turmoil
the memories
flashes
anxiety
and slowly painfully finally he drift off to the other realm
leaving his cold empty body soulless
and you can't help but cry
cause theres nothing you can do to stop it
no time reversal spell no nothing to save him from his pain
that he endures hoping he would be well one day
but slowly the odds are against him
giving up
because he has no strength to fight it anymore
his body can't take it and finally he stops breathing
gradually stops breathing
and it's where people start mourning and crying
the lovely memories you spent with each other
will haunt you for your entire life
him leaving his footprint
good or bad
sad or joyful
all these emotions he conjured
stays in the very core of my heart
he's leaving me
and i can feel the pull
lighten
all you could do is whisper in his ears that its gonna be ok
even though its not
the lie to comfort him
its more then just a lie
to console him
to ensure him
give him a little hope
but you know whats coming
and its inevitable
i feel so helpless
i cant do anything
i feel the gradual emptiness coming
the hole which no one can ever replace in my heart
because it was meant for him
tears streaking down my rosy cheeks
eyes swelling
why?
why now?
can it not wait?
death is inevitable.
9:03 PM
Friday, January 16, 2009
ok i guess you guys have been wondering
where the **** i've been to all this while
let me tell you
i'm still busy
i'm so sorry for not entertaining you
well not really but i'm happy you guys bothered to visit my blog =)
so what i've been working on
is my shophouse models
both 1:100 and 1:50 scale
don't understand what i'm talking about?
ok see the shophouse has measurements doesn't it?
length breadth width and everything?
so we have to do a miniature model of the shop house
and infuse our concept of designs in it
according to the designer we chose to research on
the designer who will be our client
mine known as Verner Panton
i love him
cause he seems to hold similar design concept to mine
mainly CURVES
ok i'll upload like more photos to see my progress meanwhile
sorry again
and boy was the shohouse tedious
all the intricate designs
which i'm not up there yet
and yet balancing so much more like presentations and quizzes
but through all this i learnt
that i shouldn't give up
i know how cliche it sounds but trust me
when you're in my shows or any other designers shoes
giving up was never an option
12:27 AM
Saturday, January 10, 2009
wow what could i have been doing up so late?
well i was helping joel mohan with his signature competition
as in like give him more variety haha
this was my entry
i was just entering the contest for the fun of it
knowing that i most probably wouldn't win
but i did it for the fun of it
omg guess what
i snipped my own fringe off
and yes seriously i did it myself
i woke up in the morning and found my fringe to long
so i cut it a little bit shorter
but it was like in the middle of nowhere
so i cut it even more shorter to make it visible
which was good =)
i miss my fringe haha
now i have it back
and it's straight and smooth too!!!
but it was really funny
cause i snipped it off while i was in the "sleepy mood"
can you imagine???
who'd knew i was a subconscious designer???
well i sure as hell didn't lmao
3:01 AM
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
things have went pretty smooth so far
ironically it had been quite hectic
due to like assignment deadlines
but i guess they have their reasons
and im feeling pretty calm now
through the shitty week
and what helped me was this really great story of wayang kulit
where RAMA rescues his wife SINTA from the evil clutches of king RAHWANA...
don't understand what i'm talking about?
here's the link i read it off...
http://www.joglosemar.co.id/ramayana.htmlthen you'd probably understand what in the world
im actually talking about
but even if you do
i dont really care seriously
cheers =)
11:14 PM
Thursday, January 1, 2009
woo the new year
2009
i bet everyone whos at home are likely to be blogging about it
like poor oh me
well if i had a choice i would celebrate outdoors thank you
but oh well
duties are duties o.o
hmm
so what will become of the year 2009?
i don't know
i don't care
who knows someone might assassinate obama
and next the other guy
i forgot his name takes his place
who knows it's all one big conspiracy
im kidding seriously
but i don't really expect much from 2009
as any other year
it's just another day
passing by
but
this day is the anniversary day
after one entire year
but it still stays the same
24 hours a day
night and day
nothing special about it i don't see much of a difference
except to be horrified that the countdown brought out horrible singers
seriously wth?
there's no singaporean talent enough to sing?
frankly
i'm just being frank
why am i cranky?
oh no i'm not
i'm just cynical like just any year
of course
seemingly there's loads of people out there partying their asses out
lucky them =)
so happy for them
really
however i found the gurmit singh and michelle chong act really funny haha
so jackasses and bitches
happy new year =)
wish you all the best and stay really hot and sexy...
12:24 AM
