i forgot how special and unique i was
until someone reminded me so...
because i lived with it
practically everyday
so i kinda got used to it...
but people around aren't
it's sad isn't it?
to find out that your uniqueness
was thought of to be some kind of malady
how friends fail to accept that your different
i was born different
fail to acknowledge your difference
well it's natural to be pessimistic and all
but it's like prejudice
it's like being racist or sexist
people labeling people
reminds me of stereotyping
i mean just because your different
doesn't mean you deserve to be treated differently
well
let me tell you about my difference
im not pure Chinese
i just recently discovered my family history from my dad
im 75% Chinese
the rest are a mix of Eurasian blood
and not to mention
Malay and Indian blood as well
in addition, my ancestor is Alexander the great
and kublai khan
forgot who that was
believe it or not i don't really care
wow right?
Basically all this started in church
when my friends start noticing that
im too fair
my skin is so white it seems translucent
that you can clearly see my veins..
usually Chinese are yellow skinned like wth?
like i said these are stereotypes
it's often to generalize the whole Chinese nation
which is so not true
look at the people from China
they have awfully pale complexion
not saying that im from China haha
back to what i was saying
because my whole body was white
plus i was wearing a short skirt
along with a short sleeved top
leaving my arms and legs bare
so it's clear to see that my skin is white
not yellow
Actually, the special feature of my skin is that
if i were to tan myself
my skin will turn back to normal again
so it'll turn back to white
i have evidential proof haha
but im too lazy to scan my photo and upload the picture
but i was saying
we were by the swing
i was under medication
which side effects were drowsiness
soo i bent down
then my friends
noticed that my hair under the sun
turned red
my friends we like asking if i dyed my hair
i was like noo
i don't dye my hair
i prefer my natural self
natural hair and skin i told them
they failed to believe
and accept the fact
they think that i stay at home too much
not been under the sun for years
kinda thing because i was rather fair
can't they acknowledge the fact that im fair
here
it's called self denial
and self deception
i was being offended because this is my natural being
and people call it fake
who wouldn't?
it's like people claim that tyra banks breasts are implants
when she claims they are natural
i can accept that
i believe her
not only that
people think i wear contact lens
because my eyes arent black
their brown
really brown
not blackish brown
but hazel brown
im special
not ill
not weird
and i can't stand being the same
i mean
we are all made differently
why should we all be the same
just because he has yellow skin
does it mean i'll have yellow skin?
here we have
illogical isn't it?
i embrace my being
i love that i am fair
i love that i have brown hair or red whatever
i love my hazel brown eyes
don't tell me to change
so that i can be the same as you
no i don't want to be tan
i don't want to dye my hair
i don't have an identity crisis
i know who i am
and im not sick
im just me
normal me like wth
get it through your thick skull people
being different doesn't make us weirdos
being different makes us special
and unique
and rather beautiful
if you see it in my perspective
so don't tell me to do more sports
don't try to fix me
try to accept me for who i am
so what if im white?
so what if im different?
the most hilarious thing was
i was thought to be sick
with albino
have you ever seen a true albino before?
no?
have you truly compared?
then don't you judge me
the people i love thinks im sick
how hurtful can that be?
don't try to fix me
nothing is wrong with me
12:11 AM
Friday, April 18, 2008
and complained it was too black
this is felix without his handsbefore i started to paint felix's details
this is the prep workthe measuringmultiply the length by 2boy,it was sure tediousplus the cutting out of the shapes with penknifei was thinking of ways to make felix personality fit into the brick boyalthough it was quite hectic but it is unique doesn't need to be a replica of the original felix
as kelly mentioned brick boy is already weird
why not make it whackier??
so it means kinda let your creativity flow
don't stop it with restrictions
i decided felix
because basically i love cats
so it kind of resemble my tabby cat which i love soo dearly
i managed to pull through and make him
5:32 AM
Monday, April 14, 2008
Well
Apparently,today was the official first day of school
what was truly odd
was that
i'm from a DnT class
how on earth did i get myself into interior designing?
i have not a clue at all
trust me
maybe i wanted to try out something new
try to be some art student for a change
who knows?
i might excel in it
but yet again
there are the odds
where
i have no experience whatsoever in arts
definitely
so there's like plenty i'll need to catch up on
What i actually noticed in School of Design
was that
everyone was CLEARLY unique
in their own special way
be it physically
psychologically
expressively
we are all different
and somehow
we are able to express our differences more clearly
through arts
yes even though to science students we may seem like weirdos
but hey
being different doesn't make us weird
it makes us special
to stand out from the crowd
so in conclusion i think arts
can open a part of me
more of the creativity sector
and explore the endless imagination
bringing things to life
it's also a way to learn
instead of just textbooks
words
words
and more words
it helps develop a part of me
in order to keep it balance both the intellectual
and the creativity
even though i should have ended up in mechanical engineering
but what the hell
God decided this path for me for a reason
so i shall follow through and makes what's best from it
Today's assignment was
actually i skipped the morning lecture
because i had to reconfigure my bloody laptop
what a shame
i missed out important stuff
if only i went for lessons i'd be able to do that assignment
well basically we have to take a sheet of drawing block
divide it into 4
then
draw an object
in different angles
portraying on the sheet
try to make it come to life
you know
shading is important
not only that
the angle of which you portray the object in
whether there's elevation involved
the depth of the shading
the blending
everything places an important role in forming that picture
i think i'm kinda moderate though
i do have a little problems with the angle and elevation and stuff
so secondly,
after our break
we had to make our own brick boy from scratch
and i mean literally from scratch
we could only use a piece of drawing block
penknife
ruler
instruction sheets and that was all
it was pretty tedious work but i managed to pull it off
then on Wednesday
we are to make one that is twice the size
and has his own personality
like for example
spongebob squarepants?
or superman
we just need to give him an identity
and fool around with the parts
i'll be sure to post pictures about how
MY original brick boy looks like
10:50 PM
Monday, April 7, 2008
omg im like freaking high!!
it's like an hour before i prepare for school
omg im like screaming in my head
running in endless circles
just screaming my joy out
at the same time
listening to avril lavigne
omg
omg
omg
all the excitement
anxiety
all the new hopes
of the next 3 years
is just overwhelming me omg
this much joy
what a wonderous feeling
from God
im so happy
BLISSFUL
im like chatting on msn
and getting high
like nuts
it's like ecstasy lmao
not that i take drugs
just feels soo happy
soo damn joyful
can you imagine
the new faces you encounter
probably a few enemies but nevermind
the future holds you and stuff is sooo
exilirating!!
it's an awfully brilliant feeling
my first day of school
haha
im like going to school
with haleem
meeting him up
soon
i just had an awesome sleep too
and im having the time of my life already lol!!
just being here
being overwhelmed with joy
on my bed
with my laptop
haha
hopefully today wouldn't dissapoint me as much
pull down my demeanor
6:23 AM
