Saturday, August 21, 2010
I couldn't really sleep tonight, because something feels amiss.
My heart feels heavy probably due to the overwhelming emptiness i'm trying very hard to suppress
My hands felt light like something was supposed to be there to leave an impression
Room looks empty, absence of you begins to creep up on me at night
dee dee lies beside me missing you too
i guess this is how it feels like when you miss someone
you don't miss the figment of the person
you miss how he makes you feel each morning staring into your eyes
you miss the caress of each other every other day
you miss the breathe of him against your skin
you miss the feel of his soft hair
you miss the feel of his skin
the softness of his lips
the gentleness of his embrace
suddenly things aren't the same when he left
i miss him because he's apart of me now, and it's probably impossible to think about parting
and because i miss him so, it affects my daily life without him
eating, sleeping, shitting
all just seem like i'm doing them for the sake of keeping myself alive
it somehow made the world seem duller
only our sanity kept us company, choosing to ignore facts
lying to ourselves everything would be okay.
but everything isn't ok, you just have to deal with it
that's all
i can't fully express myself because words aren't enough to begin to understand what it feels like
it isn't just emotions i'm dealing with but psychologically affects us physically
i love you matt
2:39 AM
