it was on a friday
when i decided
to go to the gym
you know since i never ever been in one before
don't really know the experience of entering one
and on that day i did!!!
it was ok i guess
went there with my dearest
to give me both mental and physical support lol
cause the idea of going to the gym alone was freaky
basically you picture you
clueless about everything
do not know how to use any machine at all
then you make yourself look like a fool for even trying
treadmill was the first equipment me and herald occupied
then it was kinda funny
i was amusing on my own
i kinda like take the first 5 minutes thinking like...
ok how do you turn on this thing
it has so many buttons
so my bf showed me how to use it as usual...
retarded me
so then we started
but he was already running
and im like huh???
how do you actually run on it..
cause the thick tread was kinda awkward
as in like it started revolving backwards?
so that i can kinda warm up brisk walk kinda thing
and to actually increase the speed and start running
you have to adjust it
soo embarassing
abruptly i remembered that i forgot how to run!!
just that split second i didn't know how to actually run?
but once i got familiarized with the machine
i increased the speed
then slowly gradually increasing the speed if it wasn't enough for me
so i kept running and kinda never stopped?
but after the running it felt good
however
the world kinda move
you know when you get off a moving object you just have this pull
or move
then my bf told me there was like this sauna
jacuzzi
steam room and etc in the wellness centre omg
super cool right??
that photo

ohh yea then this was taken on thursday
in ikea
in queensway
omg we like ate there
food was super deliciousss
that's the cabbage
under the light that ikea is kinda promoting
then i decided to get like fbt shorts
gosh i loved it there with the variety of fbt shorts in colours
bought the black normal butterfly one
but i loved it so much
wore it for the gym lol

woooooooooooo
i'm high on ribena and beer!!!!!!
no not really
beer sucks
but ribena rocks
forever
ahh the beer breathe
anyways i'm not drunk
seriously it was horrible yet it was great
not that bad cause there was ribena in it!!!

well now
my head is throbbing
slightly
must've been the lack of water?
i'm stressedddd
not a clue why either
probably having trouble prioritizing?
i don't know
i really can't organize for nuts
currently having a mild fever!!!
hurray
good for me hahaha
just don't really care anymore
feel dead to the world
and the things around me
and the only thing i'm doing is smelling a pair of boxers
i don't know
it's like the only thing that mattered i guess for now
it holds a significant value to me
that's why
it's comforting
boxer you ask?
not a soft toy or a blanket but a boxer?
why?
because it's from someone who is special to me
sure laugh
find me gross i don't care
it has become my refuge
or my comfort
it's like in the place of that someone special
suddenly have the boxer fixation LOL
i'm just attracted to the smell
obviously it's washed o.o
usually clothes would have a faint smell of someone on it
it has his smell
which i find all so comforting
even though he doesn't know
what his smell could possibly impose on me
what effects it could leave on me
it gives me the sense of security
like how i feel like when i'm in his arms
why a simple thing like a boxer?
shouldn't something significant as his scent come in a bottle
if i only wish HAHA
but it is his scent that makes me feel that everything is alright
despite the chaos around me
i just need to see him on my phone
that is sufficient enough to last me the whole day
i'm contented
it's those simple simple things that i'm so fond about
i don't need money to make me happy
buying me stuff wouldn't really make me happy
just temporary
it's a horrible way of buying your way in
don't you think?
i know
i'm a horrible silent person
i don't tell people how much i appreciate them
cause i'll always take advantage of it and think that they are psychic
so i'd expect them to know
but you know people
they don't know
and sometimes
they just feel vulnerable and insecure
and just that little hint could make them feel noticed
like the little changes they do for you
and stuff like that
the power of acknowledgment is awfully important
especially when you have a bf!!!
ahh the irony
now i feel like a boy
giving tips about cherishing your gfs
o.o
oh boy
only realizing today
today was a really dull that
that his boxers made the world a brighter day?
pun intended

i just love this new skin
even though it's a little too umm pink for me
but i'm pretty sure it's fine for now
cause i'm into the pink mood
and make sure that people
like you
don't actually have to strain your eyes to read
what i'm actually posting about....
just to let you know
the photos aren't permanent
sooo
hang on to your sits?
for what?
for a wild ride...
cause i can't stay put LOL

WOW
i ate sakae sushi AGAIN
the buffet of course
it was great
because i kept spamming
and ordering
stuff
forgot what they were called
just more and more
sushi
to my delight...
XD
hehehe
hehehe
can't stand it i just love sushi

although this was kinda cool though LOL
we can all see this is like vivo

i told you i never enjoyed people taking photos of me
either i take it myself
or i'll ask you to take it when i feel like it LOL
i know my hair is kinda a tad curly??
can't help it
natural born

this is a proper smile
one that i was willing to smile with
with no reluctance
or hesitance
what so ever
just me
enjoying sushi!!
that's how many plates of sushi we had

herald actually had to beg me to smile in this one though haha
i just got problem with people asking me to smile
cause it's like forcing me to smile you know LOL
you can totally see how fake my smile was
just never a good smiler?
LOL

that's me with the green tea and all hahaha
in sakae sushi
looking elsewhere of course

this is the photo we took on the way to sakae sushi!!!
couldn't wait
and it was freaking hot then in the afternoon!!
photos that i owe my blog with LOL
taken by heralds phone of course LOL!!!

just can't stand it
the feeling of being terribly sick
as in cause you feel so helpless
and now comes this nostalgic moment where i actually remembered
blogging about how hopelessly pathetic i was when i was sick
what kind of sick
the nauseating sick like
dizzy
that's the worse sickness ever
when it gets to your brains
and you can't help it at all
you're not a neurologist
or a doctor
to know what to actually do
but hey
that's like what you pay a doctor for
right?
of course
so basically
i'm too lazy to go visit the doctor
and i felt truly light headed to the point
it has nothing to do with my stomach
or maybe there's a link
but
i doubt so
usually my stomach would be unhappy first
then comes the dizzy
brain going nuts and all
the world spinning helplessly
just made me sicker
and whatever you do
stand
sit
you can't even turn your head
for fear of puking your ass off
it's as if i'm suffering from motion sickness lol
every movement just brings my head spinning no matter what i do
i can't help it obviously
and the fact that i didn't know why i was sick hadn't helped anything
sooo all i had to do was
to go home straight
and rest
i swear

so basically it was a Sunday
known as the Sabbath day
the day when God rests
and so should we
actually spend or rather focus the Sunday on God
according to sunday school
that is
we aren't allowed to indulge in worldly actions
but should spend the day holy?
but i was too sick to bother
seriously
but i bothered to pay attention during service
and sunday school
what is interesting however
until then i thought we must spend our Sunday's solely on God
no matter what the cause
cause He actually put aside everything to rest on the seventh day
why can't we?
much less we are His creation
we should actually do the same right?
but shockingly
i wasn't aware of the part where necessity
came in
like bathing etc etc
obviously that's a necessity
but what about work?
or homework?
or studies?
ahh but i just can't mention anymore
cause i was resting in class and i couldn't concentrate
cause i fell ill all of a sudden
and at the same time
my legs
in fact my whole body
was achy
and i happened to wear the shortest skirt i ever owned
but the best thing was that i wore it with a plain white t shirt!!!
it looked super great
for the lack of better words
unfortunately i don't have a photo to explain it
too sick to take a photo
can you imagine how weak i was??


aside from that
church ended
went to eat lunch
even though i wanted to go home
cause i was feeling unwell
which was definitely and understatement
which did not justify how i felt
we went to cwp again
not surprising?
joel and benjamin ate 2 double cheese burger
while i
had a caramel frappe
and i begged joel to try the double chocolate frappe
for me to taste it
you know
it's like indirectly saying that i wanna try it
so i can dump caramel frappe
for something way sweeter
not bitter at all
i don't like coffee for your info
but i needed the caffeine
anyways
i was feeling great but the greatest relief i felt today
was the period when i exited that horrible horrible room
which made me sick
but once i'm out
WOW
the difference
was vast!
i felt so much damn better
i had not a clue
maybe the room was cursed
so anyways
after eating
i decided i wanted to get undergarments
cause i was running outta it LOL
dunno why it's been disappearing
even my bras
but i got 3 cute panties!!!
i love them
of course benjamin was awfully shy
cause
1: he doesn't hang out with girls at all
2:he doesn't frequent the bra and panties section in metro
(which sicko guy would frequent metro anyways?)
3:he is awfully shy towards the opposite sex
4:he is seriously a loser
practically all my guy friends wouldn't mind venturing to the unknown i guess??
it was rather intriguing for me if i was a guy
but i got high though cause metro had so much variety
compared to john little
i'm suddenly into lace fetish i guess?
not a clue why
just felt girly
truly enjoyed the day
despite of me being sick and all

well now
i'm at home
blogging once again
updating for the likes of you
about my life
currently at home
kinda hungry
waiting for my beloved parents
to actually buy the fried oyster for me
i love them
seriously
now i don't know
actually i do
but it's kinda complicated to explain
or to put it to words in fact
just that i really love and do absolutely care for them
ahhh i love today
cause i have been out several days
away from home
but now
i'm on my bed
in my room
that's clean!!!
by me and my bro
that serenity is just thrumming through my room
the cozyness
and cleanliness
my cats loving the clean room
which hopefully is like dust free
but i doubt so
but it's cleaner then before!!
being grateful for it
aside from the fact that i'm adoring my clean room and bed
i bought facial cleanser
toner
and blemish removal
cause i just feel like cleaning my face as well
and treat it with the respect it needs
which is kinda dire
so
now i'm hungry and eager
for my parents to bring home the treasure!!!
can't wait to completely consume
and enjoy, savor the dish
that was brought back from malaysia!!
even though i may not be a big fan of oysters
cause they kinda suck big time
this awful taste it gives when you bite it down
gross
buuuuuutttt
one day
or shalll i say one night
my parents brought it from malaysia
to actually change my perception of the gruesome oyster
so one bite
and damn it was really good with all the fried flour
i loved it

and oh yes
kinda forgot
well on my way to work
i had to buy lunch
which happened to be sushi
because i was thinking of kelly
if she wanted onigiri
since we started the frenzy of the onigiri feast
her need for it has never cease
she has never gotten bored of it
it was just that tasty for her
sooo as i was saying
i was on my way to cold storage to get those sushi
i bumped into a very old friend from primary school
chynna was with wendy
from the same school
just that they are next door classmates
soo i caugth both of them in causeway point
on their way out
sooo
they decided to accompany me to buy my sushi
then get the hell outta causeway point
we were talkign about the usual
how their prep for o levels were
prelims and all
so on and so forth
then finally i went off to work
and they departed home

gosh i have no idea
why i'm actually blogging about such boring stuff
seriously
maybe i'm just really bored
butt i can't wait to get my hands on those high heels!!!
thats for a fact one of my number one priority!!!
on my shopping list of course
ohh dear my stomach's growling
mummy!!! where are you???
well tata fellow readers!!!

i just seem to love the contrast of this photo
ok
this is the babydoll dress
that i fell in love with too
from topshop

i just love those simple designs
and cuttings perfectly to suit the body
but of course not everyone can pull this dress off
just saying i love it
for itself
not that the fact that kate moss is in it
but the dress in itself
it's my style
not the cleavage and all but the design
to make it look not slutty and a little touch of flirty
and of course class
for me i just love the was the skirt compliments the fabric of the top
which makes the overall look flirty and young
just love it
AHAHA
but the damn thing is i can't wear a bra in it
i guess
i don't know
i'll see about it

so anyways
today i went to church
met up with my peeps as usual
but
it was awfully tiring i swear
i was like dozing off in sunday school
of course i learnt something from church
i learnt that God WILL provide for our needs
so we do not need to worry
he is always there
whether you're outta money
outta friends
he provides you
in his own way of satisfying your needs
isn't He nice?
He actually bothered to care for our pathetic souls
and yet assholes still deny His existence
still doubt Him
question and make Christians doubt Him
the thing is
we are His creation
and we have no rights to rebel against Him
we are just this pathetic humans
whose just trying to prove God wrong
who are we kidding?
ourselves
lives living in denial
self-deception
ignorance
self-centeredness
how dumb right?
we take advantage of God
throw Him aside
yet He still loves us
no matter what we do
no matter how far we run away from Him
He is always there
whether you like it or not
you can't run away from Him
are you foolish?
it's like running with a never snapable leash around your neck
not that we are dogs
in fact that's a lousy analogy
God loves us soo much
you can never run from it
all you can do
is embrace Him back
don't be stubborn
at times
you are required to submit to Him
maybe it's all the time
not fight Him
just because He doesn't appear in your face
doesn't mean He doesn't exist
are you saying that science is also believing in something non existent?
science are just claims
not true
look at Darwin's theory of evolution
do we come from apes?
we are supreme and complex being
it is an insult to compare ourselves with beasts
His theory was never true
never will be
because it opposes the truth in life
opposes many prospect in lives
don't tell me
you compare yourself to a pig
and think that you were a descendant of one
it's utter rubbish
why would you
degrade yourself so low
as to the levels of animals and beast
i have faith in God
i know he exists
whether you accept it or acknowledge it
He changed my life
He made me whole
God loves me and all of you
even if i hurt Him
or go against Him
He will forever hold me in His arms

tonight i just can't sleep
i don't know why seriously
what's keeping me up?
what worries me?
i have no clue
only thing is that
i have to sleep
or else i'd fall asleep during service in church later
i know there's a throbbing headache
but i can't sleep
it's too hot
yet too cold
i had my match of dota
lost as usual
cause it was 2v5
clearly we lost
my neck feels stiff
my whole body feels achy
wth is wrong with me?
i feel pretty much famished again
i want to eat
but i don't wanna eat bread
i'm
craving
for
meat
i don't wanna drink water
already done that
now my 2 cats are sleeping on my lap
and my spine keeps groaning
yet
i do not want to sleep
why?
cause i'm waiting
waiting
waiting
for?
someone special
talk to him before i actually drift off to my slumber
to not know whether i might wake up later
even though i'm mentally and physically exhausted
yet
i still want to hear his voice
afraid
that i'll never hear it again
that i might lose it
the voice that gives me comfort and sense of security
everyone around me already in dreamland
only him that i depend on to talk to
i don't know
why i feel this way
so dependent
yet not so
what's happened to me?
clearly put it i miss him

maybe he slept?
always the maybe that would scar me for life
what if he slept already?
assumption is always a bitch
what if
always the what if
the smell of perfume is driving my thoughts wild
stupid shit fucking hell
inhaling the perfume so damn toxic
i bet i just shortened my life span of like 20 years
bloody hell
chocking myself to death
now my whole body aches
just like some hangover

where was i ?
oh yes
why it had traumatized me
cause i always end up waiting up for some people
yet they went to sleep
what if they were up?
shall i try my chance
obviously their sleeping?
besides you'd wake up the family or something
that thought that made me hesitate trying
that fear that stop me from connecting with people
giving excuses like what if he's busy
better not
fuck that
so what if they're busy
i'm not gonna be a pussy and let it go

anyways this entry is just for fun cause i'm clearly bored

OMG
joel is an asshole today
but anyways
i went for YF!!!
today
amazing huh?
most of the Saturdays i'm booked
but because of certain circumstances
i'm involved in it now!!!
so today in YF
we did the usual
like singspiration
then we started with
the paper pop up art
with the christmas tree
initially many had trouble completing it
but it was through out
easy peasy for me LOL
don't know
i completed everything really quick
then joel kept cursing and swearing cause he obviously suck at cutting
almost made his christmas tree leafless
so when i'm done i had to help him most of the time
and it always gets his nerves
then we became really hungry
decided that we should eat sushi
so after class i wanted to rush off
cause i was starving
hadn't had anything the entire day
sooo i was soo eager and impatient
kept asking joel
where they were
can we go now??
then he was like you better not say another word or i'm gonna slap you
but he was joking of course
sooooo
we went to causeway
and decided
that we wanted to eat fast food
and decided
to go for kfc
but wow
we ordered liek a whole lot
since we were too hungry to even care
we just got it and rushed to where the other yfers were
in order to start eating
you see we can't wait to eat
but the problem was
we couldn't find them in the food court
soo
we looked around and finally found jun hao
so there was kelly joel alissa christina junhao jamie and me
sharing a round table
a little squeezy
but it's just nice
but the feast was enjoyable XD
then kelly wanted onigiri
so did joel
but we kinda got distracted because
joel wanted to get earpiece for his ipod
so we went to walk around
and i was complaining that my perfume curious is leaking
and it's pissing me off
cause it's so expensive
and i really liked it

so we went all over cwp to get a perfume bottle proper enough to store my precious perfume
i swear i was addicted to the smell
can't stand myself
i just love britney spears perfume
especially surious
smells soo sweet
soo i got the mini jlo glow perfume
cause the bottle was nice lol
and pretty secure
then joel
as you know
will always spray fucking random perfumes on you
whether it's male or for females
kelly wasn't spared
we were all reeking with heavy strong gross smelling perfume
hated it
cause whenever we stand still
we can just fall ill cause we can't smell properly
the perfume is so strong it's practically chocking
plus it's the fushion of many other strong perfumes combined
it was nauseating
it was getting all of us sick
feeling really heaty
because firstly the perfume sucked
as it's absorbed into our bloodstream
making our temperature in our body rise
cause there's like more blood flow
like drinking alcohol
just that the way of consumption is different
it was giving us all headaches
and literally chocking the breath outta us
cause all we can breath is the fucking perfume
no oxygen whatsoever
so horrifying
as the perfume lingers on yourskin for quite some time drowning all your senses
especially your sense of smell
making it all go nuts
sets your brain on fire
you just can't stand still
if not the fumes would flood you with immense strong pungeant perfumes
making sure your nostrils are filled with it
making you high
and slightly tipsy
imagine being killed by the overdose of sniffing perfume
gross
but whatever
now i'm at home
washed myself of all the freaking perfume
and i'm done happy now pretty much
but sneezing like shit LOL
what could i do?

well now that i have my laptop back

to the extremely funny faces

MY HEADBAND!!!

we visited the pet store then we came across these adorable puppies!!!
soo puny

yes i know you can apparently tell that my bra is vividly blue
i mean what would you expect ?
the material of the top is super thin and sexy

i just love my outfit that day
even without heels i felt extravagant

and all the funny faces i made

this is me when i wore my cool headband which took a lot!!!

F**K THAT

I'm just crazy alright?

Me...

18...not that you should care , but it's the basics to actually know my age

My cats are gorgeous and shall rule the world!
I LOVE CATS!!!...
Halloween baby
technically I can't be bothered with the opposite sex trying to hit on me now...

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