Friday, May 28, 2010
i've decided to use tumblr as my form of blog
it's faster and easier
so says quennie
http://itsybitsykitty.tumblr.com/and heres the link
what better day could i have asked for
an hour or 2 spent on tumblr screening at how many individuals express themselves
it's extremely fascinating
got loads of cool photos too
currently working on my 3d fort canning park
trying to make it look realistic
sort of
i dont know how to do that when i dont have all the dimensions but i can roughly estimate
i'm feeling much better
thanks to everyone who wishes me well
5:59 PM
Thursday, May 27, 2010
i had to let it out somewhere
im sure everyone is falling ill
ive always hated feeling so sick
i didnt go to school today
i needed the rest
my flu was pretty bad
and i dont think i could stand another day in that absolutely cold studio of mine
i could die of hypothermia
knowing that every brush of chill air from the air conditioner caresses my naked skin
instantly erupts an irritation from my nose and viola
a violent sneeze
that just cant be stopped
and this happens continuously through out the entire day
at the end of the day my hands would be shaking
nearly had a fever today
it's a cold no amount of fats could save you from
probably stress induced
8:47 PM
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
unfortunately i can't let all this go to waste
i need to do something
i can't let all her efforts go to waste
shes a great leader
it's just not fair
don't worry honey i got your back
i'll see us through even if i had to murder the other 3 to do so
all i need you to do is have a little faith in me
i cant let this fail
i dont take failure as an answer
and i don't like the fact that we won't be able to rebut the lecturers
i don't like the result of our failure is because we fail to perform
we put far too much effort and im really really not gonna let anything fuck this up
im gonna take whatever it takes to succeed
if anybody gets in my way
you better pray for mercy
i don't care if i bruise any of my group mates ego if i don't abide by their rules
or their ideas
but i'm sorry so far it hasn't impressed me
and you've let my best friend down
i can't be fucked with your egos
grow up and deal with it put your ego aside
this is life
not some fucking ego , who is better whatever nonsense
if you're too stubborn to see it through
and insist on sabotaging our entire group to not produce anything
please i'd rather you kill yourself
then bring us all down with you
it's no longer about who's model is prettier
or sophisticated now
it's about delivering
and maybe simplicity is the key to the damn thing?
it's retarded to fight about light or shadow
honestly i don't like what i'm seeing
she trusted you to set things straight
time and time you failed
not once
not twice
not even thrice
if you can't do your job
just say so
don't promise things you apparently cannot deliver
don't give people false hopes
she has been kind enough to give you chances after chances
fucking people and their egos
yea you really piss me off
you piss me off the moment my friend was on the brink of breaking down
you think i'm joking
i will cut you in half if i have to
i'm that serious
don't fuck with me
12:08 AM
Thursday, May 13, 2010
i am thoroughly extremely exhausted today
i just feel so very cluttered
because i am probably drowning in things to do
like the rest of us
in interior design
im still very much astonished that we're pretty much year 3 now
judging by the amount of effort i put into my work for the past 2 years
i really wasn't counting on thinking about how we would be like in year 3
hoping that year 3 would never come
i'd picture our entire class in chaos with the amount of work we would be indulging in
i have decided to take a particular interest in skate boarding
i don't really have a reason as to why?
it's just something i wanted to do for quite some time now
i'm not sure if that justifies me for the abrupt choice of entertainment
i don't even know whether skateboarding is a sport
trust me i know NOTHING about that deck
i'm starting from scratch at the age of 18
so why a skateboard?
i don't really know
it's just something intriguing
it could be a passion
or a sub passion
im not really entirely sure what my true passion is
probably singing
cause i have never felt anything like that when i was singing
you know how a particular song swims around your heart and soul
while you sing
you feel attuned to it
like it made perfect sense
that's just the little bit of how i feel about singing
it makes me feel really happy
like really extremely happy
i don't know if happy was the right word
right now it feels just so in adequate to elaborate on how i feel
how's my school work coming along
i feel that it's still hazy
yes it's all a blur
and undoubtedly fast past
unfortunately i might not be able to keep up
i've been feeling exhausted ever since school started
even with about 8 hours of sleep
it didn't do much justice
however i have been listening in lectures
and i wasn't sleeping in them!
what a vast improvement
not really
i'm scared
afraid i won't be able to make it this year
cause i believe it requires a lot
i'm not throwing in the towel
just feel as if im not inspired
i feel as if i've lost something
i feel as if i've been abused hahaha
cause like seeing how much time i spent on my course alone is pretty scary
and im actually taking a major plunge to manage my time
and money
hopefully it all falls into place
and im not used to it
definitely not
sadly i think relationship is going to be the last on my list right now
hahahahaha
am i happy?
am i happy missing out watching tv and missing out the outings with my peeps
is it worth it?
it all comes down to whether its worth it losing yourself in the process for design
honestly i dont think its worth it
but its the things we have to deal with in life
i have a love and hate relationship with design
i should also learn to be more responsible next time
im really sorry hazimah if i caused you any distress
i really didnt mean it
alright im gonna turn in and wake up in 2 hours time to complete whatever i should
i should stop the habit of turning off my alarm clock to sleep in for a few minutes
i don't think i can afford it this year
i need time to be on my side right now
12:48 AM
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
you'd think i had my life figured out
thoughts are probably racing through my mind right now
having intech lecture now
metal construction and detailing
11:23 AM
