Tuesday, December 8, 2009
whoa i know it's been ages since i've touch this page haha
i miss you guys
i miss my friends
yes im admitting it now
dumped my bf
hurray for me
im making up for the hurtful things that ive done to other people
like not meeting them
however it may not last!
who knows
no ones certain of their future
yea i'm feeling pretty great
even though after the massive break up
but whats to compare the amount of years you suffer with some guy
and sheer happiness?
yea youll be like saying oh but you were soo long with him
i didnt think 1 year 4 months was long
and its hard to put it in words
but time flies
nope i didnt cry
i didnt regret making the choice
because i believe it was good for me
apparently he wasnt good for my soul
and when its not good for my soul
its not good for my body and my mind
its correlated anyways haha
and i didnt particularly feel full and accomplished
i felt empty when im with him
there were times when i felt like
why am i doing this to myself
why am i suffering?
then the answer was that i was blindly in love haha
yea its dangerous
so what if theres no more hugs and kisses?
you have friends
you can attain intimacy with friends
you have family
you have cats XD
i think im staying away from a relationship
for awhile
im gonna be bloody choosy
so my friends if you think im making a horrible mistake please do tell me and refer me to my past few relationships haha
haha
when i was in the relationship
i thought you guys dont understand what im going through
well it was me fooling myself
i didnt know what i was getting into
sometimes i must let my third person perspective take over lol
it's so windy now
i feel absolutely happy LOL
cause i found my appetite back!!!
i managed 1 meal without puking it out
yes recently i couldnt eat right
i could barely finish my fav bowl of pasta
how sad
i was amusing myself
thinking about going vegan LOL
but not that i hate eating meant
but i think my stomach couldnt take it
its like half my stomach died
or sealed up LOL
i managed to eat my wanton noodle!!!
weeeeeee
and yes i picked the right choice
thank you God
im gonna wholly trust you know
you know whats best for me =)
and this was
a step back to see how screwed i was
oh yes i love lady gaga!!!
and thank all my friends
who was there
to hear me complain
about mostly my ex bf hahaha
its funny cause a lot of people are breaking up too
but when there's an ending there will be a new beginning
so broken hearted people
embrace the new begining
4:52 PM
