it's like the week of stress omg what am i to do? im like lost soo scared i have no clue where to go or what to do where to begin AHH this is just crap my deadline is due in hours time i meant ALL my assignments damn it what to do? no clue really why am i still blogging? no clue either hhaha maybe it's just a way for me to release a little stress to continue on maybe it's slacking to you but it's essential for me if you were in my place you could not keep your eyes open i mean it's utterly exhausting can you imagine staying up way past your bed time to complete your homework? not good enough? well what if i said it's counted in your final year report and each semester you had to pay a bomb and my homework isn't all about math or science anymore it's about art creativity determination will power perseverance no room for slacking anymore ladies and gentlemen well, it didnt matter where we came from a slacker home or an ultra hardworking background what truly matters is i am here and this is what im set out to do so people just do it! wth it's like freaking nike but who gives a damn as long as you do your job... my gosh i feel like im some kinda granny cant stand myself but oh well it's part and parcel of life i guess... psychoanalyzing myself is pretty cool obviously im suffering from stress and over exhaustion
2:52 AM
Thursday, May 8, 2008
life has been rather hard on me rather on everyone it wasn't easy for me not for anyone it's just so hard i just no longer know what to do anymore be myself i guess? in a way it's also hard to move on but it is a must if not you can no look forward to tomorrow although i know it's not the end it never will be always stay dwelling in sorrow pain and despair knowing that everything is stripped off us distraught agony not a hope at all takes time to heal these im now vulnerable all that i can think of is constant emotional struggle and conflict to save myself the self loathe the constant psychological imbalance mentally unstable it's like your heart got ripped off but there's always something better on the other side of life just needed to embrace yourself and move on willingness to move on failure is a stepping stone to success no point feeling helpless cause the world isn't gonna wait for us we need to get up with our own 2 legs and look forward to life
11:07 AM
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
well well well frankly i haven't updated my design blog for ages and it's time to like catch up so design school was not all easy for me it was tedious and it requires a lot of hard work and determination i meant it literally too i mean it's really time consuming perfection takes time just like everything else i say tedious because we need to put in our utmost effort to complete our assignment in a short period of time so there's like time constraints take for example your in a class of design students it motivates you to do better i used to think poly life was kinda slack and all skipping lectures and stuff like that but for me noooo way completely different from my point of view it's like designing is absolutely new to me i started out with nothing i couldn't draw for nuts actually i could if i put in effort so it was not what i had in mind which is actually exciting to experience something totally different where every stroke counts every detail counts everything counts the amount of effort the amount of time all this are factors that influence designing no more little effort work anymore even though at times you find it extremely hard what i realized that it is not always as it seems when they asked us to do a wire sculpture i thought that it would be rather easy considering their just wires right? but as you approach the staring part you have no clue where to start how to start or what to do you have the picture in your head but how are you gonna work with your hands to achieve that?? is it possible? would it fit? what if it doesn't what am i to do? you improvise many a times i face failure one after another it would not always turn out your way and sometimes discouragement it's like trial and error like how is this gonna fit in here ? how are they gonna pull it off i had to make adjustments and everything these are the things that you need to consider in design enough with words i shall show you millions of words with my pictures
12:02 AM
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Life is going to be spectacular this year and i can feel it, told you i'd change when i'm 18... what am i talking
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