Monday, August 31, 2009
5:05 PM
Saturday, August 29, 2009
i have learned a lot today
i'm back home
and i was troubled
about finances
yea well
i was given a choice
it's about the transport concession
which costs 43 bucks
so i thought
should i call my granny and ask for my allowance in advance?
or
should i borrow from my parents
then i thought of another one
since
i can take a train ride to work
but what about coming back?
i only needed money to go to work
and come back
so then i thought maybe i needed only 5 bucks
so i asked my dad
and he says
if you can find it
then my mum asked me how much i needed
i told her 5
she told me to get her wallet
did you see that!!!
she lend me money
God blessed me so much
and then
cause she knew i didnt eat
so she passed me another 4 bucks
to buy live prawns to cook
i was touched to the bottom of my heart
she loved me so much
and i was too ignorant to notice
until today
i was still her beloved daughter
she changed for the better
God did answer my prayers
it was so touching i was crying on my way to sheng shiong
the love was just overwhelming
tears trailed
helplessly
just an act of kindness
before that she asked me if i smoked
cause my bf smoked
so my granny
was complaining
that i might get influenced
to smoke
so i told her no
then i forgot to tell her
the same reason why she didnt smoke
when my dad did
it goes to show how much i took for granted i guess
i dont know hwy im soo emotional
my mum suddenly became my best mother ever
i love her so much
under the stubborness
i love my parents a whole lot
even though i dont always get what i want
if they didnt love me
there would be no cats
yes i have always wanted cats
and they let me have them
if my mum didnt love me
i wouldnt be in this course
im grateful for everything right now
my family my friends my bf
everyone
golden girls made me think a lot lately
such as to forgive and forget
and a lot of other things
the certain errors we all commit
and there's always a motive behind peoples action
why would my mum go for her license
for our entire
family
to enjoy a vacation together
what my parents did
may seem harsh
but
in the long run
it was for the best
6:24 PM
Friday, August 28, 2009
finally
crit was done
i wasnt prepared
but i couldnt be bothered
because
i was ytoo tired
to prepare and stuff
they complimented a lot
just that my presentation didnt do my project justice
but
im not interested
i really cba
so
i went back home
to rest
woo
it was reallyyy cold
you know the monsoon and all
it felt such a perfect weather to rest
of course
i played dota
to release the tension and stuff like that
it didnt end well though unfortunately
why do i sound monochromatic today
well
i feel pretty numb
i thought about a lot today
of course im not gonna share with you
so joel calls
and wake me from my slumber
ugh
wooo
but i just had a wonderful dinner
which consists of
mutton soup
the chinese version
was superb
unfortunately
it wasn''t better then the kambing soup
muahaha
the one thats thick
and great
i'm sorry
the blood circulation is still rushing through my mind
yes and im still watching golden girls
it was heart warming
nearly cried
it was soo touching
10:01 PM
Thursday, August 27, 2009
wellllll
today started off as one hell of a cold day
went for hazimah's crit today
then a job interview
sometimes
i think the lecturers dont know what they are saying
who cares
they get paid at it
doing a shitty job
oh well
no surprise
so i was watching golden girls
its interesting how each episode was pretty realistic about life
with men
with relatives
with rivals
with etc
its a very meaningful show
teaches you the facts of life
4 old ladies trying to deal with life
so hazimahs crit was pretty good
she improved a lot they said
of course she did!!!
i saw it for my very own eyes
then i went to watch john tucker must die
its soo hilarious
but penn badgley i soo cute
with his long curls
i think hes better off with them
oh well
basically right now
im supposed to do a walkthrough
too bad for fariz he couldnt make it
to my crit
i really dont wanna do the walkthrough
just like how much i dont wanna do
the furniture design competition
cause im feeling lazy
but i know
at the end of the day
i will have it completed
i just cant procrastinate much lately=/
i know ts a good thing
but you'd miss the time
where you can be lazy
and cant be fucked about it?
and it doesn't change when you actually do it
accomplish it
it still feels the same
just that you get extra grades
i have developed more discipline=/
and that's not necessarily a good thing anyways
its like you feel solemn
when you lose weight
cause you get to say goodbye
to this part of your life
that is part of molding you
to whom you are today
i guess thats why
even though its bad for you
i know i should be delighted
but so what if i get compliments
it's all thanks to God of course
im telling you i can never do this on my own
never
so i dont really like to take the pride
cause i dont deserve it
yea you may tease me
and be sarcastic
i can smile and laugh
but im just mere eunice tool of God
i'm serious
i'm not being modest
i just dont feel proud you know
i dont know
even though i can rub it in at times haha
but very seldom
really nervous for my crit tomorrow
im expecting the worst
all the time
this way
i dont get disappointed
i never understood pride
so
after im done with
the walkthrough i let you guys see it
dont worry
=)
8:32 PM
it's raining like crazy right now
i can't seem to sleep
wanted to play dota
but got dced=/
is it the weather?
no one else is online
maybe i should go back to sleep
I have lots to do today
good luck hazimah for your crit
ill be there for you!!!
hahahaha
well all in all
lecturer is leaving to his hometown
kinda sad
considering he was my favourite
so put that aside
my crit is on friday
and i can hardly wait
i still have to do the bloody walkthrough
it's ok
ill do it tonight
ugh
hopefully watching golden girls would cheer me up eventually
i don't know why the dark cold stormy night is depressing yet calming=/
it's like its a contrast
not the unexpected contrast itself that you like
you like the existence of both
because it seems like one can't do with the other i guess
oh well
3:12 AM
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
It's incredibly freezing cold
considering i'm sitting next to the open window
it feels equivalent to an air conditioner
you know at times i feel that singapore should snow
and times like now i think
gosh its soo cold
if its snowing id be frozen in time
hopefully deep down in my heart itll snow
but once it comes
youre never prepared for it
cause youre in a tropical climate!!!
how could that happen?
climate change is a complete understatement
it's so cold
i feel like my toes are gonna freeze and drop off
frost bite they say
seriously
the weather has been nuts lately
its putting me in more of a hibernating mode
explains for the eating less and sleeping more
and lazing around more
i bet everyone's busy studying for their exams
and cursing me cause im completely done with mine
all i have to do is to do my little crit
and then im done completely
11:10 PM
i'm so tired
of doing nothing of course and my submission is tomorrow?
hmm what am i to do?
do work of course
thinking about it is giving me a major headache
what on earth is so important about designing furniture?
yes its holds a major percentage in one of my module
but i dont see the point
it's just really a complete waste of time
seriously
so anyways
i'm just sooo lazy
i couldn't be bothered doing it
seriously after going through these past few weeks of immense
blood sweat and diligence
i dont see why i cant afford laziness right now
ughh
it's not the least of my problems
i still got this critique going on this friday
and i am clearly 0% prepared
oh yea and i've been watching golden girls
and these 4 ladies are splendor
9:33 PM
Sunday, August 23, 2009
meow just woke up from a nap
having cramps to this level
that it makes me that much nauseating
ahh
the holidays
well not quite yet
but sheer freedom is what they call it
not too soon
id have to find a job=/
so anyways
the fasting month started
for hazimah
and its like 1 month to count down
ahhh cramp
ahhhhhhhhhh
anyways im hella bored right now
oh yea i went to church today
and learned a lot
like?
tithes and offerings
what about them?
its the attitude and the heart that counts
many people think its a waste of money
but i think otherwise
just cant explain it and point it out
till the paste few weeks
tithes and offerings
is what we offer to God
basically
the money came from Him
cause He blessed you with it
whether you like it or not
it's His
so He wants you to come out with 1/10 of what you have
He doesnt care of the amount you give him
trust me
you think He'd care of the pathetic thing we have called money?
or how much
He put a lot of emphasis on tithes and offerings
to show the true nature of man
do you love money
or do you love God
remember He gives you the money
you really think how much matters to him
its how much heart you put on the platter for him
He looks at your heart
your cheerful giving
or your reluctance
tell Him who you treasure more
comparing to an old lady who gives her all
and a rich man who gives 10k
who do you think would bless more?
the one
who put her heart in the bag
you think God would leave her to die?
God promised that he will bless them
so she had nothing to doubt about
or worry at all
cause she completely trusts God to take care of her
8:42 PM
Friday, August 21, 2009
FINALLY
omg feel soo tired
finally submitted the God forsaken project
i seriously wondered how i managed to pull it off
God is the answer HAHAH
finally
time for celebration and lots of sleep
muahahaha
thats the reason i was off my blog for awhile
cause i was busy doing crap seriously
did autodesk viz like crazy
8:25 PM
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
at like a pig today
pasta
tuna puff
and shaker fries
but im not sleeping tonight
thats why im piling up the food
you either eat
or sleep
choose either one
im not gonna sleep
till im done with 90% of it
yea
im dead serious
later on you see
i might fall asleep
but thats not my problem lmfao
ok
i will do this
!!!
i can do it!!!
12:03 AM
Monday, August 17, 2009
just heard that my friend's mum died
his only family
and now hes alone
with his lovely jones
his golden retriever
and he only has himself to rely on
he's working of course
no longer in education
it was a sad event
its really sad
i dont know if im supposed to shed a tear for him
i know it sounds cruel
but
who am i to cry for his mum
he's strong
obviously he doesnt wanna show his weak side
am i the one to break it down for him?
sometimes it hink staying strong is a lot better then to wilt in sadness and despair
its one of the most painful thing to endure
and if one cannot take it
they may lose it
so in this case ignorance is bliss
so im gonna be strong for him
12:53 AM
Sunday, August 16, 2009
went to church today...
was pretty good and all
ate lunch opposite of church
the coffeeshop
today
was basically about thanksgiving
more like the attitude towards giving tithes and offerings
you always hear this
give willingly and cheerfully
the cheerful giver is the best
the story fo the poor lady who gave her all
compared to the rich lady that unwillingly gave the sum of money
its how you perceive money
do you love money so much that youre not willing to give it to God?
firstly it's not your money
God blessed you with it
along with so many things
yea
so its the attitude that counts
then mum bought san lao hor fun
tasted weird today HAHA
as in it didnt taste its best i guess
after a couple of rounds of dota
im down to something which i cannot escape from
my homework
yes
is a drudgery
i am compelled to do it
i have absolutely no choice whatsoever
if i want to achieve grades
i have to do this journal
im soo saddddd
when is it seriously gonna end
thats the question that will eventually answer itself
in time...
10:14 PM
I feel like a pig today
firstly i slept till like about 5pm?
cause i decided it was more efficient to do the journal at night
nad i felt soo hungry
and im unfortunately broke
so i had to resort to eating instant noodle that left a horrible after taste
the one taste that make me wanna puke
so i went back to sleep
i woke up again
and realize i could cook
if there was the correct ingredients around
if they existed o.o
and yes
so i thought why on earth havent i thought of that
all i needed
was butter
mince meat
soysauce
pepper
garlic
and onions
that was all that was needed
oh gosh its the best thing ive ever had since this week lmfao
yes i can cook
only for myself
it tastes better with the minced meat
cause its salty enough to pull the entire dish through
tasted so good with the flavours of garlic and onion
perfect hahahaha
even my mum said it was nice lmfao
i had no choice though
since im left with these ingredients
12:35 AM
Friday, August 14, 2009
SOO finally gems presentation has been accomplished
left with the models
AND TOD JOURNAL
plus story book
AND AUTOCAD DRAWINGS
OH GOODNESSS
LORD HAVE MERCY ON ME
went home really late today with my dear friend hazimah
with so many things i had to bring back home
missed my bed hella much
reminds me of south park!!!
WHERES SOUTH PARK
so anyways
my parents turned out to be sleeping in my room
so i have to sleep in theirs=/
with all my stuff in my room
NOO
boo hoo
anyways
11:59 PM
Thursday, August 13, 2009
MEH i hate doing this
having to do presentation
ahh shit
why???
id rather do models
sometimes not always true but whatever
i feel like im procrastinating
but its only 1 click away
followed by another and im done
meanwhile here are the photos youve been missing out
just started tumblr!!!
wee
eesshhh did i tell you ive been farting a lot recently?
10:43 PM
WAAAA
finally finished RWP presentation
went so so
pretty well
but i was monotonous
cause i wanted to brush it off really fast
really do
so finally
i did it hehehehe
lmfao
now
i still have GEMS presentation
goodness
then next TOD journal
when on earth is it gonna end serious?
soon 2 more weeks and im free
3:51 PM
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
ok i'm gonna make my pizza now
WAIT
i feel like baking something
WOOT
i'm soo craving for so many italian food
ahhhh
PASTA
CRAZYYY
2:39 PM
i'm craving for pizza
some good ol' home made pizza
with that glorious red sauce ahh
and mounts of cheese
plus plus plus MUSHROOM
i'm hinting...
LOLOL
its funny though
how you'd blog about your point of view
like the opposing point of view
to make yourself look intelligent and shit like that
its really amusing
to see people bombarded with comments they cannot counter back
i mean seriously?
trying to act smart and say wow God doesn't exist
well God does exist
youre just that pathetic that He wont let you see Him
if He does
you'd die of blindness
existence is not the question whether you can see him
it's questioning whether you have faith in him
you don't actually need to see him
science can try to prove He doesnt exist
but they can only go that far
because humans mind is limited
sure you can come out with great gadgets
but can you try to be God
never on the surface of the universe
God is limitless
in ways you cant explain
so now youre trying to think ohh i'm such a big shot
ohh i created myself
wrong God created you you ingrate
this is where your downfall begins
your arrogance and pride got in the way
i'm not sorry that i believe in God
and i wont take back my words
i'd stand in faith
no matter what you atheist say
it won't shake my faith
in fact i feel stronger
knowing that God would back you up
why be anti God?
It's the grace of God that even lets you breath
he's so gracious to even let pathetic beings live on
if he werent
you'd die the second he wants you to die
See how much God loves us
And how ironic that we take that for granted everytime
and yet he's willing to forgive us
yea you can question
what about the devil
God created the devil right
so it means he created evil
wrong
God created angel and his angel was proud
fall into sin
then he's known as the fallen angel
and cast him to hell
for that 1 sin
and then he was known as lucifer
God allowed the devil to exist
how evil existed?
evil is the absence of good
which is the absence of God
INTERESTING!!!
2:10 PM
I THINK. I AM
i didnt feel like blogging the previous days
cause blogger has been so fucked up
it pisses me off
i was soo bored yesterday
i have finally completed half of the model
but more has yet to come
like autocad drawings have to be completed
shitiass
UGH
and i really dont feel like doing anything
also a major loss of appetite
eating less=/
the disadvantage
i still gotta do presentation!!!
which starts tomorrow
feeling soooooo damn numb
too numb to move
or do anything
i'm completely complaining
WHY???
woo and my blister dried up
how interesting
i hadnt even notice it was there
i seriously think i'm a late bloomer
pimples only develop after o levels
what kinda fucked up shit is that seriously?
but pimples are a must for puberty
means that i'm still growing
ugh
i wish i could grow vertically
i'm just that short
it's just genetics
i wished i had my dads tall genes
ugh
im only slightly taller then my mum
yes im crapping out random stuff
i realized 80% of my friends link on my blog are invalid o.o
and im too lazy to link again
see im just too lazy
kinda getting used to rushing off projects
i know i've said it before
but previously was nothing compared to this few projects right now
ah well what could i do?
not liek i can stop time
or stuff like that
i wish i could though
then i could see if everything was what it was really originated
or it was just made up
making history just another cock up a story crap
one can never be too sure
the only thing you can be sure of is your questioning/ doubting mind
rene decartes is such an inspiration
of course we shouldnt take his methods to heart
if not youd died of self torment of mental delusions
i think he died that way
staying in the corner
asking
am i real?
or im just a dream
thats when you think too much i guess
when you start doubting everything in sight
1:21 PM
Sunday, August 9, 2009
yay went to church today
after a very long time indeed
after that we went to eat lunch
later on i had to rush back to grandma's house to eat yummy bukulua
dont know how its spelled
i feel so fat now
ugh gonna do work now
soo pissed off
cause i have so much to do seriously=/
watched singapore idol today
it was hilarious
with that freaky guy
that scared the shit outta people
of course they should the rejects and all
which was part of entertainment
horrible them
11:35 PM
Saturday, August 8, 2009
visited my granny in jurong point today
i missed her so much
i really do
i know shes love me deep down inside
now doing my models
=/
when is it gonna end?
i wont be available till everything is done people
feel so broke=/
and its hurting me badly
and making me learn to save money =/
ahh learned it the freaking hard way
8:17 PM
woot feeling great hahaha
after a great dance
i finally learnt the mj beat it moves
not perfect not close
but its good enough that you can see his steps HAHA
oh well gonna perform in class on tuesday
with hazimah for fun lmfao
im gona practice till its perfecto
and do my models of course =))
was so inspired by the stockholm tribute to mj
hahaha
so cool
yea
then we sang in class today
woot
not only that
we kinda did nude drawings haha
well this lady
was in her bikinis
and i think she was 40-50?
but after i realized while drawing her
i am in amazement
she has the guts to wear a bikini
and let studenst like us marvel her
this was when i thought she was beautiful
just the way it is
i know shes not like your average hot model to draw
but she is really beautiful
you have to see for yourself to understand
take a second to think
she had the balls to stand half naked infront of strangers
in order for us to appreciate the art and beauty of a human body
the proportions
and difference
youll see
1:07 AM
Friday, August 7, 2009
im chatting with my dearest shu juan on msn now muahaha
at teh same time doing the fucking model
waaaa
my model is freaking fragile
nearly fall into pieces on the train
oh gosh horrid idea of bring the dang shitty thing home
8:54 PM
Thursday, August 6, 2009
today is boots day
where hazimah and me
wore wore boots
totally kick ass man woott...
still doing work
when will it EVER end
oh dear=/
meanwhile
these are the photos i took today
before it ended
7:50 PM
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
sketching right now
God just gave me the best gift ever
FOOD
yes my mom bought the san lao hor fun
and its delicious
if not fattening
but too bad anyways
its the last meal of the day
and tomorrow im planning on eating meat only hahahah
ughh whyyyyyy
why give me this glutton stomach??
im soo hungry lately
but i dont wanna eat more
but i desire to have more food
9:57 PM
ugh soo sad
i wish i had dlsr
take ultimately beautiful shots=/
ahhhhh hahaha soo sad i wanna do photo shoot and stuff
i'm in class nwo gonna go art friend soon muahahaha
feeling soo tired though
just had a terrible sponsored workshop
where this guy talks about lights
not how to do lighting
more general kinda thing
like types of lights
examples of facade using lights
like the ion and such yep
boringggg
1:02 PM
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
ahh sketching now=/
1:25 PM
Monday, August 3, 2009
soo now... people
i need to make sketches of my storyline
soo happyyyy
and alter the storyline a little
sketches
good sketches
that i can do
i feel like going to the beach!!!!
i wanna go there with my bf =(
oh well
sad sad
oh and today is our 1 year anniversary!!!
SO FUCKING HAPPY
2:56 PM
attending TOD lecture now
talks about one modern philosopher
pretty much known as Rene Descartes
I think. I am
that's his motto
i guess basically he thinks too much
thinking that
you know youre eyes deceive you
how can you be certain of everything anymore?
so he decided that the only thing he could trust was his thinking mind
that doubts eveything
therefore
he searches for precision
something you cannot doubt or question
and that's mathematical reasoning
whereby he relies on maths to produce truth
interesting
12:14 PM
Sunday, August 2, 2009
hahaha
soo cool
ok i'm gonna use dutch as a language
you can translate it yourself
im to lazy
so here it goes
hoi
hoe gaat u allen
Ik ben zeer fijn, en ik ben liefdevolle deze taal
Dus eigenlijk doe ik dit voor de lol die je kent, hopelijk kunt u dit decoderen.
En nee ik heb niet het huren van een Nederlandse man met het type uit haha
En ik ben behoorlijk veel gedaan verdomd goed als rond
yea ok so i'm done HAHAHA
yes that's dutch my friend
11:55 PM
ok so now im waiting to watch eragon
meanwhile
i'm feeling so happy today
1 year anniversary coming really soon
muauauauauuaa
i love you so much dear dear =)
basically right now i'm thinking about myself
like do i really know myself
maybe a little bit
maybe a lot
so i'm like thinking about the things i like
and what id like to do
i can see such a contrast
and its a pretty extreme contrast kinda thing
then i'm like thinking
about what i wanna do with my life
i mean
usually in the begining
itll be soo unclear
like the only answer to those question is
i dont know
right now
the path seems clearer
thanks to God
and everyone around me
which have moulded me
good or bad
you still count
thinking of ice skating
ya know inline skating?
can't wait
i mean i like rollerblading
should be the same anyway
cant wait to ride my very own motorbike!!!
until i get a license HAHA
oh well
it seems soo cool
my childhood dream of riding my own one
like my dad!!!
soo cool
biker clan haha
soo many things i want to do you know
thank God for clearing the path for me
it seems natural
i mean eventually you'll have to clear the path
i can see now!!!
i know i haven't been going to church
so sorry i couldn't make it
i know ' i have loads to do '
doesnt quite cover why im not in church
ill be back for good
but thank you everyone for making me who i am today
especially my friends
be it we were together for a brief period of time
or you were there through out my entire life
i thank you all
because it's you whom shaped me
and you gave me the opportunity to shape you as well
thanks for accepting me
even though i'm
rude
irritating
weird
psycho
etc
yet you still stand by me when times fall apart
thank you all
this is my appreciation to all of you
thank you for leaving me fond memories of the past that ill always treasure forever
sorry couldnt hang out with you
full of projects and absolutely busy
please forgive me
love you guys =)
i mean choosing friends are important cause they can either break or make you
yep
yep thank you guys!!!
hoep fto see ya soon hahaha
ok i'm supposed to watch eragon now
wee soo blissful
hahahah
ok ok ok
but enjoy this post
cause yea we all know it wont last long
you know my in this blissful mood hahaha
2:03 PM
Saturday, August 1, 2009
ok im back woot!!!
i went for my friends wedding so happy
shes soo pretty
photos will be uploaded soon
hahha i enjoyed my time XD
i even wore a baju kurong
muahahah
10:39 PM
i cant stop singing lmfao
ahhh sore throat getting worse
but i dont give a fuck
lmfao watching mariahs obsessed in response to eminems lies
so now he's given her a warning cause hes always dissing on her HAHAHA
about them having sex and stuff
he threatened with naked photos and stuff
whoa he went there o.o
lying that youre sexing me lmfao
so anyways im done with her song and his rap dissing each other off
maybe there will be a sue? dont know dont care
go mariah!!!
who'll win?
dont know
obsessed people is the song
the warning is the reply to obsessed
just listen
12:46 AM
ahh fuck im having sore throat now
from singing
at least i havent lost my talent WOOT!!
fuck yea
hahahah watching eragon now...
trying to grasp the storyline
more of the scenes...
12:06 AM
