Tuesday, July 29, 2008

at every plane it is possible to stand on
but was it possible to walk on?
what kelly wanted
was it to be logical
sure curves are your style
but it has to be logical to walk on
and never ending at the same time
can you do that?
so he kinda suggested staircase on certain parts of the curves that are steep
and the final project would be the real timber wood framed model which is like
40 by 40 cm....
how it looks like from the top view
for my model of space
it's the versatility and complexity
curves instead of linear planes
it's my character
my style
which makes me kinda different from others
because i questioned myself
why must i follow eschers model
when i have my own personality and space to portray in this cube
i'm the curvy wavy kind so why not?
even though it was harder to do
but it doesn't hurt to try
yea the staircase made it interesting
but kelly said to drop the railings=/
i think it's how we should express how we want space to be like
within this cube model
it's quite an interesting piece though
and it has to be logical
simila to escher's model we done earlier
This is the making of my model...
The whole idea is to create this one space...
That holds that illusion and all
so on six sides you'd be able to experience different spaces
even though it's the same concept : curves
This is my first ever attempt to make the model!!!
Even though it's like exciting and all it's rather tedious

8:33 PM

Saturday, July 26, 2008

finally feel so freaking blissful...
i bet my happiness is annoying the shit outta those who hate me
but who the hell cares
what matters is that i'm contented
and so are my friends
and my lovely cats wooo
so anyway
what's pleasing me to heaven
ehh completing my 3D model!!! yes
and in the progress of clearing my to do list
sooo freaking happy i feel like flying
and nothing can shoot me down
yea yea and today ended really early
but i have to go to work
but working today was soo fun but their weren't much customers
that meant i had to do less
heheheheh
happy as a cat with whipped cream
soo anyways
and what added the cherry on top treat was that i saw my best bud omg!!
so freaking coincidental !!!
because after i knocked off
and was on my way home
i bumped into her
not literally
but i saw her in the train with her family
she just got back from the hospital
because she had to visit her mom
but now her mom is like in better condition
i'm really happy for her
grateful that God let nothing happen to her mom
yea so i met her aunties and other relatives
all really cute people
and her sister was soo nice to be with!!!
she's a skeptic omg!!!
such a fun person
just like her sister
so we were like talking about school
and stuff
the usual girl talk you know
we were so bad
because her younger sister was sitting alone LOL
because there was no space to sit beside us
so she had no choice but to sit directly in front of us
since there's available seats there
boy was i tired
but bumping into my friend made me so aesthetic
so freaking relieved to complete one of my assignment
it felt like i was going nowhere at all..
ohh but wth....i did it!!
and that is all that mattered

12:12 AM

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

The stress is really piling up...
i mean i have a lot undone
and partially my fault and not my fault
it's really tough
to work part time and study full time
so far it's the hugest responsibility that i've ever taken on
in the past i didnt need to work at all
and now i have to to pay my bills
i was working in a restaurant previously
it required a lot of my strength and time to work there
to lift plates, ceramic plates in fact
and it just keeps pushing and pushing
till i'm out of breath and strength
that i cannot even touch on my homework the weekend
it really has been tough lately
things have been rather down lately
i'm probably typing these pessimistic messages out of my tiredness
i'm exhausted
i'm pissed at myself
for not doing my best
and for a lot of things
it's wearing me out real fast
right now negative thoughts are intoxicating my mind
like a plague
just keep spreading the negativity
through my head
making my body respond negatively
see how your thoughts connect to your body reaction?
i haven't been eating well
resting well
i feel weak
my body feels like it could break anytime
so fragile
so worn out
i'm sure i'm not the only one who feels this way
i know i should be optimistic
maybe later?
let me sulk for a while...
so that i can pick myself up and move on
i have been emotional lately...
mood swings are soo irritating

3:05 AM

Monday, July 21, 2008

yes finally!!
done my one point perspective drawings woot
still got a whole lot though
trust me i got a list of it
but having that list helps me organize better LOL
like seriously!
i know i'm never a tidy person
but oh well
if it helps then why not?
at least to keep track of what's done and isn't


so today
omg
we're in the process of learning how to create a model
like the real models now
so now we're kinda playing with satay sticks
and tape lol
plus paper
we have to do like 3 cube models
so from then
we can proceed to do the 3D model omg!!!
where it has something to do with Escher's model that we done earlier
but this time
we are required to bring it to life!!
well it may be tedious
but after getting the list done
it's like i feel that i can take on more
previouly i was soo pessimistic and negative
about my homework completion
like i was about to die figuratively
and stuff
suffer
now
lecturer approved my first and only model that i had done
so now all i have to do
is to turn it into an interior space <3


so what our class learnt
was that through the inspiration of escher
we are able to create a space
that is kinda never ending
it's like when you rotate the plane
you are capable of walking on the walls kinda thing
and it's like the walls would turn into floors
windows into doors
not your evryday norm thing
it becomes another form of art
so we have a cube
which has 6 sides
so in this 6 sides
you have to fill in the space as well as provide layers
so that later on
when to twist or turn the cube
you are able to explore the space in a different perspective
talk about exploring perspectives
different views and opinion of people
making space flexible
no longer just a square box

we learnt to draw 2 point perspective as well
boy it gets rather interesting every lesson

7:55 PM

Friday, July 18, 2008

and how very vulnerable
but then again
they're just muscles
they may not say a thing
yet they tell you everything

and how you can look dangerous
just really damn bored
see how there is always a hidden message behind it
it's always interesting to read facial expressions

see how the difference of movement
make you react to it differently
this picture shows that i screwed my face to make me look sentimental
and soft
just by manipulating that very muscle
the whole facial feature changes
so it's like every movement of the face muscle affects how your face would be portrayed how different it will all seem to look like
so it's like taking pictures
preserve that movement
in that place
in that angle
a smile
a frown
a twitch
all affects your facial expression
telling people
what your dwelling or thinking about

playing with my hair and stuff
ahhh see how bored i was
had a hard time completing my homework damn
and somehow
i think taking lots of picture
preserves that particular time
so it would not be forgotten
lets just say i was pretty bored with myself...
so i decided to take these photos

6:09 PM

something terribly tragic happened yesterday night
it was soo horrible
damn it
actually it wasn't
my bro just broke his arm
how?
by roller blading
and
because we were rushing for time
since our whole damn family were to watch dark night
soo he rushed and he fell
fell
such an inadequate word to describe the situation
what an understatement
cause usually
when you fall
the most you get was a bruise
but this
isn't a fall
i just can't grasp the right word for it
he fractured his arm
due to a minor ACCIDENT!!!
yes i found it i think
but it's too big an overstatement LOL
like such an exaggeration
but like wth
he was screaming really badly
so i tried calling my parents
but it couldnt get through
next thing was to see a doctor
soo immediately the doctor requested for us to go to the hospital
because it was a major fracture
not any dislocation i assure you
well it shows that our family doctor is incompetent
of dealing with situations like this
what would you expect?
he's not a surgeon
this dire situation requires professional help
too tired to actually talk about it
they got it relocated
and now his hand is in a cass
there's actually more to be said


so
i did not attend school
to help out my bro
with him temporarily handicapped
he requires support and aids
but he's fine on his own i guess haha
pretty much independent
i mean
of course to prove that i'm capable of taking care of myself
i'm thinking in my bros perspective
if i were dependent on someone
it would render me weak
and helping him might insult his ego or something
but who gives a shit really?
i ought to help him cause i'm his sis
but
i'm not gonna let him take advantage of that though

4:03 PM

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

damn it shit
haha
inevitably
OC exam couldn't be escaped or avoided
one way or another
i'll have to do the dang speech
ahh i'm like currently preparing my research about
the positive influence of fear in our daily lives
ranges from emotional blackmail
how to deal with it
and basically i know fear is really ambiguous
there's things like phobias
another aspect would be violence etc.
and how is it involuntary
it's one of the primary emotion
and how is it triggered
fear isn't rational

so irritating to the brink of anxiety
it can't be helped
damn it
i mean i have loadss of homework
who doesn't?
aaaaaaaahhhhhhh
screaming in my head

11:04 PM

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

This is my one point perspective rendering
well technically im in class now
not exactly my appointed class
but i'm crashing my friends class
cause i missed out one of the important lectures
known as autodesk viz
you ask me what that is?
it's a 3D simulator
to create perspectives
3D perspective objects duh
i overslept cause sleep was sooo inviting
and i stayed up all night to finish my rendering of one point perspective
i bet you guys must be lost
what is one point perspective?
go find out yourself
i ain't spoon feeding you
so practically
there was a technical problem with the printings of the school
because i was to hand in my assignment
in A3 colour
so i needed a colour printer
but it was soooo disappointing
we had to walk all the way from the MRT station
to that printing store
it's like a 10 minutes walk
so while i was on my way to the printing
i was contemplating whether to attend OC lesson
but i wasn't prepared
i needed my documents
i didn't do my research
so i lack material to my 1000 word essay
sad
so i decided to crash my friends class
anyway it's also for my own good
so now i have to get an MC
oh dear
i'll be broke like soon
causei have to get an MC for skipping class
it was not just any lesson
i had a TEST which i hadnt known
and
i wasnt ready boo hoo
all i can do now is no choice but to get an MC
if not i'll be completely broke
and now i'm here
learning about this 3D stranger simulator
blackboard may not help though
cause it's like some hands on though
i can only learn when i do it
i'm kinesthetic i learn through applying and moving
soo yeaa
i absorb better
but i can multi task
you know this morning
i was one the phone
in the train
sitting down listening to music at the same time
and writing down my notes while talking to my friend
it was kinda cool though
although i only had 2 hands
my hands were kinda full
now i'm blogging and playing with autodesk viz
and listening to my lecturer
soo damn cool man
i meant autodesk viz
so fun to play with
even though it's complex

10:45 AM

Friday, July 11, 2008

wow i wasn't aware of how seriously shagged i was
it's like upon reaching home
i immediately dwell in deep slumber
i succumbed to the lethargy
and landed myself on the bed
without giving a fight or any resistance
my bed felt all so soft
just the right place where i wanna be you know
it's like my bed and i had some kinda connection
it was able to seduce me into sleeping
and not feel guilty
since i should be doing homework
but i guess my body couldn't take it
it HAS to have this nap
and so i slept like 3 hours
was worth it though
i feel energized and ready
the power of the bed huh
i don't know
it feels like my best friend
who embraces me when im crying
cuddles with me
enjoys my presence in it's midst
it's more to it then just a bed
it seems to be alive
the soft fabric that brushes against your skin
never hostile but always welcoming
always understanding what you need
a sleep
must be the influence of my cats
oh well
nothing can be done about it


so anyway
here i am on my lappy
i was supposed to be doing my tessellation exercise now
i was so happy i managed to complete one template
what an accomplishment
but im supposed to do like 3 in total
which was tedious
but rather gorgeous
surprisingly i'd expected it to be a piece of trash
cause i was sucky at that
so i tried and it turned out well

so today in class
tessie wasn't the only thing i was attempting
i was attempting to skateboard!!!
because one of my friend had CCA today i guess
so she brought her skateboard along
which was super cool
cause i wanted to try it
and it seemed tougher then it was
but it was fun
too bad i couldn't stay back to practice more
was even contemplating on joining the CCA


so anyway i'm having this barrier again
where i dwell in my own world
this loneliness i never mind at all
seems to bug me that i don't mind it at all
well
at times when i'm with my friends
i'm not a 100% there
sometimes i'm protecting myself from them or something
because maybe i never want people to get too close i guess
i don't even know what i'm saying
what i'm saying is
sometimes it feels good to be alone in a sense
whereby i'm in my own world
and no one
can understand me that way i understand myself
so there's this barrier built
but at times i'm fun and outgoing
i seemed to have double or more personality
but that's me i guess
i mean my friends are lovely
truly
maybe thats the way i am?
it's just a phase i'm going through XD
so don't worry

like what joel said
normal people are boring
because me and joel are similar in the way we think
so we came to a conclusion
drawing the line
whereby who's weird and who's pathetically normal
no offense to normal people out there
but weird people can speak the same language
normal people can't understand weird language
which makes them stupid
i know i'm nasty but it's true
if you really think as much as us
you would understand
it's like some form of stereotype or label
but we draw the line
that does not mean we don't hang out with normal friends
we just put up with them cause we love them
maybe weird isn't the right word
maybe special
there are rare weird people out there
so far we only found 3 in our social circle
weirdness isn't an illness
i love being me
being special, unique and different from the stupid society
why would i wanna be normal?
and be the same
i never liked being the same or wearing the exact same clothes as my friend
don't know it violates against my trademark
i'm not being snobbish ,arrogant or anything
i'm being frank about myself
wouldn't you wanna give a stand?
i'm not like any normal girl apparently
and never will be
so for those ...strive to find your own identity!!!
i support you
well just to let you know i'm a natural pessimist
and that was sarcasm
it's better to be rude and alive
then to be dead with manners

6:01 PM

Thursday, July 10, 2008

I'm an odd ball who cares?
every single one is different
but i don't understand why others would copy others
haha you might think i'm crazy
maybe i actually am
to enter into a guys toilet and act like i pee standing
i just thought it hilarious
i love it though
i mean a toilet is for privacy
and an invasion of opposite sex just entered into the sacred room
crushing every ounce of dignity the toilet held!!!
can you imagine
toilets in the future might even be combined
nah dream on
i'm just doing this for fun
except for the embarrassment my friends had to go through
seriously LOL should have seen their faces
i'm gonna start blogging often now
cause it's like my little journal

anyways today was my theory of design presentation!!!
how exciting
i know you guys are gonna get bored
lets cut to the chase
which is...
omg i did well
i'm finally satisfied with my presentation
even if the timing was all wrong
but who the heck gives a damn
yea and i just got off from watching the perfect man
by Hilary Duff
you know the chic flick
it was kinda nice
yep that's all i can say
i mean if you wanna know how it's like watch it for yourself people
i'm not gonna spoil it or leak it for you

plus i've been busy daily like yeaaaa
because i have pounds of homework
such as modelling
drawing
more presentations
just more and more and more
but i pretty much enjoyed it
i have no clue
maybe i'm a sadistic person
who knows right?
i enjoy suffering
only for the right reasons
i suffer to create beautiful art
in a way true appreciation
i dunno of those of you who'd disagree
but i'm contented with myself
so i wouldn't give a damn about what you think
it's mine and it's truly unique
so my course seems to actually help to look for originality in every single one
of the students
i have regretted at times
when times get difficult
but now
i can see
how beautiful and eloquent originality can be

6:28 PM

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