tonight i just can't sleep i don't know why seriously what's keeping me up? what worries me? i have no clue only thing is that i have to sleep or else i'd fall asleep during service in church later i know there's a throbbing headache but i can't sleep it's too hot yet too cold i had my match of dota lost as usual cause it was 2v5 clearly we lost my neck feels stiff my whole body feels achy wth is wrong with me? i feel pretty much famished again i want to eat but i don't wanna eat bread i'm craving for meat i don't wanna drink water already done that now my 2 cats are sleeping on my lap and my spine keeps groaning yet i do not want to sleep why? cause i'm waiting waiting waiting for? someone special talk to him before i actually drift off to my slumber to not know whether i might wake up later even though i'm mentally and physically exhausted yet i still want to hear his voice afraid that i'll never hear it again that i might lose it the voice that gives me comfort and sense of security everyone around me already in dreamland only him that i depend on to talk to i don't know why i feel this way so dependent yet not so what's happened to me? clearly put it i miss him
maybe he slept? always the maybe that would scar me for life what if he slept already? assumption is always a bitch what if always the what if the smell of perfume is driving my thoughts wild stupid shit fucking hell inhaling the perfume so damn toxic i bet i just shortened my life span of like 20 years bloody hell chocking myself to death now my whole body aches just like some hangover
where was i ? oh yes why it had traumatized me cause i always end up waiting up for some people yet they went to sleep what if they were up? shall i try my chance obviously their sleeping? besides you'd wake up the family or something that thought that made me hesitate trying that fear that stop me from connecting with people giving excuses like what if he's busy better not fuck that so what if they're busy i'm not gonna be a pussy and let it go
anyways this entry is just for fun cause i'm clearly bored
3:09 AM
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F**K THAT
I'm just crazy alright?
Me...
18...not that you should care ,
but it's the basics to actually know my age
My cats are gorgeous and shall rule the world!
I LOVE CATS!!!...
Halloween baby
technically I can't be bothered with the opposite sex trying to hit on me now...
Life is going to be spectacular this year and i can feel it, told you i'd change when i'm 18... what am i talking
about life has been and always will be crazy
