well it's the brand new year so much for crappy 2009 i totally agree and i cant afford to agree to disagree that 2009 sucks haha 2010 is welcoming us with open arms and legs LOL! no ill never stop being me how was the new year for me all i can say to keep it short was it was absolutely fantastic LOL yea hurray for me yea i dumped my bf a month ago no dont feel sorry for me i feel great for real im not lying to myself i dont see the point in engulfing yourself in sadness it actually calls for a celebration yea i needed a day to myself to think again but the next day its moving on time you might call me cruel but i dont really care if you were in my place you had no other option when you choose its either him or yourself i chose myself he was trying to slowly erode away who i really was turning me into someone i shouldnt be if he couldnt accept me well he can jolly well fuck off I asked God though before doing it and He answered me I'm very clear of what God thinks of me and him what weve been doing continuously sinning against him isnt exactly my forte yes i've decided to take religion to the next level i'm commiting to it now rearranging my priorities i told him when i turned 18 i would change and sure enough i did or maybe i didnt change i changed back to me with new guns to play with HAHA and yea when i turned 18 i had a serious talk with myself what the hell was i doing? going farther away from God would God want it this way? he says he will go to church soon will he really? how sure are you he will commit his faith to God how sure are you that he didn't do it for your sake when he's supposed to do it for God and not you i couldnt stand it when he asked me not to go church one day and stay with him so i chose and picked God because it became obvious that i can no longer rely on him i used to think i can put my entire life in his hands but then it all changed and slowly slowly he neglected his responsibilities even though hes like 20 he should be the mature one but he wasnt he was selfish very selfish selfish enough to blame everyone around himself but himself including me yea you can tell me you love me but do you really you just need a companion you dont need me to love you you just need me to fill that empty void i know i was important in his life but i really dont care cause as of then he isnt my life i didnt want to live the life with him on the day i was 18 the sour sour part of me the realistic part of me gave me a rude awakening the part where i count on when i go astray she would grab me back to the surface slap me a few times funny huh im slapping myself oh well just wanted to say things ended that way for a reason anyways like i always said i cant really put everything down on this blog there are things id rather keep to myself i hope you guys understand but i just feel that i typed enough for today LOL
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F**K THAT
I'm just crazy alright?
Me...
18...not that you should care ,
but it's the basics to actually know my age
My cats are gorgeous and shall rule the world!
I LOVE CATS!!!...
Halloween baby
technically I can't be bothered with the opposite sex trying to hit on me now...
Life is going to be spectacular this year and i can feel it, told you i'd change when i'm 18... what am i talking
about life has been and always will be crazy
