i am thoroughly extremely exhausted today i just feel so very cluttered because i am probably drowning in things to do like the rest of us in interior design im still very much astonished that we're pretty much year 3 now judging by the amount of effort i put into my work for the past 2 years i really wasn't counting on thinking about how we would be like in year 3 hoping that year 3 would never come i'd picture our entire class in chaos with the amount of work we would be indulging in i have decided to take a particular interest in skate boarding i don't really have a reason as to why? it's just something i wanted to do for quite some time now i'm not sure if that justifies me for the abrupt choice of entertainment i don't even know whether skateboarding is a sport trust me i know NOTHING about that deck i'm starting from scratch at the age of 18 so why a skateboard? i don't really know it's just something intriguing it could be a passion or a sub passion im not really entirely sure what my true passion is probably singing cause i have never felt anything like that when i was singing you know how a particular song swims around your heart and soul while you sing you feel attuned to it like it made perfect sense that's just the little bit of how i feel about singing it makes me feel really happy like really extremely happy i don't know if happy was the right word right now it feels just so in adequate to elaborate on how i feel
how's my school work coming along i feel that it's still hazy yes it's all a blur and undoubtedly fast past unfortunately i might not be able to keep up i've been feeling exhausted ever since school started even with about 8 hours of sleep it didn't do much justice however i have been listening in lectures and i wasn't sleeping in them! what a vast improvement not really i'm scared afraid i won't be able to make it this year cause i believe it requires a lot i'm not throwing in the towel just feel as if im not inspired i feel as if i've lost something i feel as if i've been abused hahaha cause like seeing how much time i spent on my course alone is pretty scary and im actually taking a major plunge to manage my time and money hopefully it all falls into place and im not used to it definitely not sadly i think relationship is going to be the last on my list right now hahahahaha am i happy? am i happy missing out watching tv and missing out the outings with my peeps is it worth it? it all comes down to whether its worth it losing yourself in the process for design honestly i dont think its worth it but its the things we have to deal with in life i have a love and hate relationship with design i should also learn to be more responsible next time im really sorry hazimah if i caused you any distress i really didnt mean it
alright im gonna turn in and wake up in 2 hours time to complete whatever i should i should stop the habit of turning off my alarm clock to sleep in for a few minutes i don't think i can afford it this year i need time to be on my side right now
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F**K THAT
I'm just crazy alright?
Me...
18...not that you should care ,
but it's the basics to actually know my age
My cats are gorgeous and shall rule the world!
I LOVE CATS!!!...
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technically I can't be bothered with the opposite sex trying to hit on me now...
Life is going to be spectacular this year and i can feel it, told you i'd change when i'm 18... what am i talking
about life has been and always will be crazy
